MY HEARTFELT LAMENTATION TO MY GOD

Forgive me—oh Father—the ignorance
The daunting disturbing a harsh snare in my spirit
I worry as those fools who knows not the love You have
I get angry over the crude selfishness in my heart
Acknowledging that this too enrages You
I get ashamed over the disobedience acts
Aroused over the condemnation the devil bore over me
My shoulders are heavy laden and greasily week
The drips of my bitter tears have worn my cheek
Day to day the devil put me on trials
He’d say I’m weak and You God won’t hear me
Put him to shame oh my God my Saviour
Arise and shine thorough through my spirit
Cast away all the broken and defeated pieces of the devil
For Your son declare I’m un-guilty and worthy before You
Increase wisdom and zeal over me
Embrace me in the wings of Your dear Spirit
Put upon me the wings to soar higher than eagles
A helmet over my head to break through
A sharp edged sword to slash through all circumstances and trials
Let me triumph and shine more than the early common stars
Break apart the obstructing walls of my enemy
Let me triumph over his ruins and shine in Your glory
I’ve known Your work and attributes since childhood
I’ve known Your never ending strength and glory
I believe in Your signs and wonders and have witnessed both
The unconditional love You son gave to us all who believe
It is my acknowledging You that the devil seeks to ruin
It is Your wisdom imparted upon me that the devil seeks to blunt
Therefore My God My King –Saturate and knead my spirit
Through my soul and my whole being
Let all the devils temptations drip before me like wax
And all weakness burnt down like ashes
Oh Lord I’ve heard for I’ve heed Your voice
As You’ve spoken to me that I’m saved and incorruptible
As You’ve shown me that I’m great and worthy of Your gifts
AS great as Christ for it is He who died for my transgression
Rise for my salvation and righteousness will
That I can live an Incorruptible Kings Life
Draw nearer oh Lord, straighten the acts of my life
To grow stronger and completely partake Your Divine

Though young I am, the train of my experience fills my young mind to the brim
Daily I call upon You name, Daily the devil pursuer to rip me apart from Your path
I’ve been caused to doubt, my faith’s weary, Oh save me Lord lest I fell in the devils pit and rot

The street’s I’ve lived, there I’ve encountered foul and fair
The weather has weathered me, the heat has dealt with me
But why do I still hold on unto You?
Why do I still pursuer Your saving grace and salvation
The light You’ve dressed my spirit in, the spirit of unfailing love
Your glory upon the land, now even the barren fields conceives a harvest
It is it the devil seeks to corrupt, but Your seed Oh God, will never return void
There upon that You’ve send it, there it shall complete the task
I’ve called upon Your name Oh Lord, My God, My solid rock of strength and refuge
Hear here the lamenting voice of Your child, hear oh God my Soul’s thirst for change
My outer eyes longs to see the fruits of my faith, Amen, Amen, I’ve said it already
Amen, i say it now again and forever Amen, for Your sake Oh Lord, I’ll never cease mentioning

I get bitter and depressed over this wicked world
Though they are there who give and those who take
Those who labor and those who cheat
Those who depend upon You and those upon men
I depend Upon Your oh Holly one—my God
Remove vain thoughts of my mind and heart
Help me to cast aside complains and ego
Shield me from the unexpected darts of the evil one
Oh Lord, like Your servant David whom I admire
Whose strength was like that of doubled wild lions
Whose sling slayed giants and wolves
There’s none and I mean it—none I can turn to
You alone the author of my life and daily bread
The world is rightly Yours to its ends—with all
All that reside in the seas and lands, heaven Your Galaxy
As the incomparable act of Christ declares me Yours—oh Lord
What am I to be still lacking—oh Father relive my faith
Let it grew stronger like the smoke of Your fire
That consumes even the rocks are turned to ashes
Your grace, love and kindness prevail since the beginning
Oh—unending God, what shall I compare you to
Here on earth and there in heaven there’s none
Lead me oh Great one, lead me in strength and valor

I slept in the nights roofed with Your sky, there Your stars shine forth
In the ever suspending field of Your heaven where no one dares
Many times You’ve showed me the brightest and I marveled as it winks
That brightest who winks at me every night, what say You Lord
What say You to Your servant?

Hear me Oh Lord, I’m tormented in great pain and sorrow
Since when Father? Since childhood my cries echoes towards heaven
I’ve carried difficult burden over my body and my heart
I’ve had bruises, wounds and scars on my skin and thank there
No bone was broken, the betray, fights and the deaths of my beloved ones
Oh Lord, the earth’s breaking me apart, the sighs and tears I’m enough to
The world is Your and I shouldn’t suffer, the water is Yours yet I get thirsty
What’s the cause of this test that it seem unceasing and unseasoned
Oh Lord have Your forgotten the voice of Your child
I refuse this agony and I yield not to the devils grounds
You alone My God I chose out of all the so called gods of the world
You alone I shall serve to the end

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About Ephraim-Leo Chaparadza

A Zimbabwean who've fled from his country due the perils it was facing, the basic reason that first came in my mind when i've decided to fled was the condition of my two loved ones, sister and ageing grandmother, i wanted the best for them and to seek the means to expose my talent. Believe me, i've got worlds to share, i know life to a great sophisticated standard, though my english is not quite accurate, with the help of all on this site i'm positively sure i'll pull up. My father was a builder in the Rural areas of Murehwa in Zim, he passed away when i was five and that's how i got seperated from my mother when she returned to her first husband. And i was left in the hands of my aunt, she was a loving and one of the good role model of my life, she followed my father when i was eleven, and i was left in the hands of her children.I had to be passed from family to another and life wasn't quite good at all, i find it very hard to make peace with myself. For more about mylife, i'm on progress of my autobiography titled (The other border jumper). I've came to SA three times through risk means (under the spare wheels of trucks) due my conditon of not having anything to buy me a visa, this is the only choice i had. The third time is this, i've never been home after i've lost my grandma, work being a problem in Pretoria i've decided to come to Cape Town, with an aim to find a ship and sail away, but that wasn't God's plan. In the street i joined a Church (Christ Embassy) it was of great inspiration than any church i've attended before. A friend i met in this Church refered me to a project called Mylife (http://www.mylife.org.za/ ) The main task of the project is this, it empowers youth and children, especially from the street, role modelling and equiping them to be the caregivers of the future. This is where i'm staying now, where i've learned to use computers, and a lot more other things and i'm grateful.

Posted on June 28, 2010, in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.

  1. Powerful stuff, stay strong friend..

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